State of my Head #3

"Last week most of us were strangers, but we're all here now. And god knows how long we're going to be here. But if we can't live together, we're going to die alone." - Jack Shephard (LOST)

Until I moved here, I used to live with my parents and my brother. Now I live with two good friend who did not really know each other before. That means, I am responsible for the three of us being together now. 

We had a really good day today as friends and roommates. And we talked about different people and characters. Especially, we talked about authenticity. I love both of them. They are great friends and even better persons. And they are both authentic.

The three of us are really different, but it starts to work out quite well. We had a few difficulties in the beginning, but I feel like it is getting better very quickly.

One of them is ambitious and definitely the most friendly and obliging person I know. I sometimes feel a little shabby next to her because she is a perfectionist and good at basically everything.  

The other one is a little crazy, but she has strong opinions and she always stands behind what she says. She has strong morals and is super caring. 

And then there is myself. I am complicated. I am self-centered way too much. I am insecure most of the time. 

I probably shouldn't try to characterize myself right now because I will totally get it wrong. That's just how I feel when I look at my roommates. That's why I love them.

And yeah, we are three girls living together, and even though all of us are not that girly, you just see it right away. I started to like this, even though things are a lot easier with my brother (and I miss him so much, and he is my best friend and that's probably why I would always enjoy to live with him). 

So we had a haircut-shoes-outfit-accessory-talk today because one of them will go to a special event tomorrow. Yes, we are so girly now.

Things are changing and I can watch them doing it. The situation in our flat got much better and I really enjoy living here with them now. But I also learned how much I am used to live with my brother and how much easier it is because I know his everyday life and he knows mine. But I am also developing and I am learning from my roommates (and I hope they can also learn something from me besides cursing a lot and using English words on an everday basis). This is day 16 and I am changing.